Author Archives: joeylott
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It seems that we live in the Age of Anxiety.
Generalized anxiety, social anxiety, panic, PTSD, OCD…and just plain old nervousness and worry.
Who *doesn’t* struggle with some form of anxiety?
With so many smart people looking at the “problem” of anxiety and what to do about it – from drugs to cognitive behavioral therapy to Somatic Experiencing to yoga therapy to psychedelic-aided therapy to ayahuasca, there are a lot of different proposed remedies.
But are they really working? Maybe for some. But not for the majority. Clearly not.
With all those smart, educated, experienced, good-hearted people working on it, it might seem arrogant or naive that I would claim that I have a better cure.
But I do.
And I’m going to share it with you.
I lived for the first 32 years of my life in anxiety. It grew to the point at which I was in panic all day and all night…for many years. I felt like an electric current was going through my body, electrifying my nerves, causing me to feel unable to find any ease or okayness.
From the age of 11 I struggled with OCD and anorexia. In shame, I hid and avoided. I starved myself and over-exercised. I washed my hands dozens of times a day. I turned around clockwise, then counterclockwise, to try to manage my anxious feelings. I counted, I tried to blank out unwanted thoughts and images. I tried to do social things only to find myself running away back to the relative safety of my home. But even my home wasn’t safe. I would lie awake at night in terror, imagining all kinds of things that might be happening – ways I might be being harmed by invisible things.
It was so bad and I failed so completely to make things better (even after years of therapy, meditation, yoga, affirmations, breathwork, prayer, hundreds of self-help books, countless workshops, and on and on) that eventually I grew hopeless. Nothing could help me, I believed. I thought I was broken. Damaged. Beyond hope.
Eventually I became homeless. I searched everywhere I could go – traveling all around the country – for something, anything that might help. But things kept getting worse.
Only when I had thoroughly exhausted everything else that I could think of was I finally humbled enough to open to the real answer.
And the real answer turns out to be radically different than everything else I had ever sought after. Hence why I had been overlooking it. And why the vast majority of people, including really intelligent, well-researched, good-hearted people also overlook it.
It is completely counterintuitive because it is NOT about getting rid of unwanted symptoms. It is not about getting RID of anxiety. It is not about defeating anxiety or breaking free of anxiety.
It is about actually discovering directly what anxiety is and welcoming it home.
In the past six years I’ve coached many people to successfully discover this for themselves. They also suffered from anxiety – whether OCD, social anxiety, phobias, or other variations – and now they don’t.
So I am confident that what I am about to share with you is the real answer.
Now, let me say that there are many things that can help to reduce anxiety symptoms. Things like mindfulness, yoga, certain breathing exercises (though others can make anxiety worse), gentle exercise, good nutrition, healing relationships and improving communication skills, and improving sleep. And I view all of those things as being well worth exploring…as an adjunct to the core “practice” that I will share with you, but not as a replacement.
On their own, those things rarely, if ever, actually cure anxiety. They don’t address the core of anxiety. They don’t help a person to directly meet anxiety and discover what it is. So even though they can be supportive of good health and well-being, they can also mask the core of anxiety and prolong the struggle and suffering if they are done *in place of* direct meeting of anxiety.
The essential cure for anxiety is, as I have just hinted, the direct meeting of the experience. Not trying to get rid of it, calm it, change it, fix it, solve it, or anything else.
How does one go about direct meeting?
Simple. Do nothing.
But because most people are so addicted to doing something, they have no idea what doing nothing even means! They want to try to restrain something – force the body to be still (which typically means rigid), force the mind to be blank, etc.
That’s not what I mean.
When I say “do nothing”, what I actually mean is to explore in your own direct experience – without using words, labels, ideas, concepts, or any referencing to any past – to discover what it is that is already doing nothing. What it is that is already open and free and still.
When you discover this which is always already still, you will also discover that no bodily movements or movements of thought or movements of sensation or emotion cause any problems or interfere with this stillness.
And this stillness or spaciousness is the anchor that you can rely on.
What you can notice is that most of the time, your attention is with thoughts. Even if those thoughts aren’t in words, you can see (if you are observant) that most of the time your attention is with trying to figure life out, trying to find future safety or fulfillment, trying to understand, comparing what is to what “should be”.
All those processes are the processes of the bodymind. It’s doing its job, trying to stay safe and acquire what it wants and needs. That is fine. And, in fact, there’s no need to try to fix that or change that. We don’t need to calm the mind or still the mind or get rid of any agitation in order to discover the true cure for anxiety. We can be free of anxiety even with all the same circumstances, feelings, thoughts, and sensations.
Instead of giving more attention to all that stuff, what you can do is allow attention to rest for a moment. It is like hitting the “pause button” on life for a second. Like setting down your heavy luggage that you’ve been carrying around. Like putting down the armor and weapons and ending the battle for a moment.
Anyone can do this. Even if you are in the midst of a panic attack, you can choose to do this for just one second. Or at least for half a second.
It is like learning to ride a bicycle without holding onto the handlebars. You don’t have to take your hands off and hold them up in the air for ten minutes while you ride the bike. At first, it is enough just to lift the hands off the handlebars for half a second. That gives you a taste. It proves to you in your own direct experience that it is possible for you.
In the same way, you can take your hands off the mind and thoughts and fixation of what all of this is and what it means and what is going to happen and what you need to do…for just a second. Just let it go for a second.
And in this one second, you can notice that you are.
Not the idea of what you are. Not the idea that you are. Not something that is debatable. Not a philosophical argument.
Just the obvious, intimate recognition that you are.
Don’t complicate it. I’m not talking about something special or extraordinary. I’m talking about the very, very ordinary sense that you are.
Everyone can recognize this. In fact, everyone does recognize this. So I am fully confident that you do. Even if your mind complicates it a second later and starts to doubt. The instantaneous recognition always is that you are. There is no way around it.
This is so simple, so easy to overlook, that most of us overlook it our whole lives. Most of us will even dismiss it if someone points it out to us.
And for that reason, many people suffer needlessly.
At first, this glimpse may be very short. And maybe you’ll go back to overlooking it a second later. But if you trust in this process and continue to look in this way by dropping thought fixation for a moment and simply recognizing what it is that is already effortlessly free and aware now and always, this undoes anxiety.
In fact, in the moment of allowing attention to rest and recognize the spaciousness that allows everything, there is no anxiety.
Anxiety is an idea that we believe in. We choose that idea over the direct experience…until we stop making that choice and instead choose direct experience.
When we begin to choose direct experience, we are instantly putting a stop to anxiety. Because in direct experience – in the direct recognition of the open aliveness that is at the heart of who we know ourselves to be – there is no anxiety.
But this doesn’t necessarily get rid of or change the sensations. And this is where people often get hung up. Because they continue to check to see if the sensations have changed. And they do that by looking to thoughts.
As soon as they look to thoughts, they typically find anxiety. The mind quickly labels the experience as anxiety and the story is off and running – all so fast that many people don’t even realize what is happening.
But again, if you pause and just allow attention to shift from mind and rest, you can notice that which is effortlessly receiving all and which is always already free of anxiety. Even though the intensity of experience may continue, there is no anxiety.
The cynical mind claims this is a sleight of hand move – that all I’m doing is taking the label off anxiety, but that anxiety remains.
And yet, that is not true. The habit of fixating on anxiety actually generates anxiety. The more we fixate on anxiety – even in the sense of trying to get rid of it – the more anxiety we generate. But when we allow attention to rest and we tune into the spaciousness that knows nothing of anxiety, this is like a reset. We are actually allowing the nervous system, the bodymind, to entrain to the frequency of no-anxiety.
Intensity of experience is not a problem in and of itself. Orgasm is intense, but how many people complain about orgasm? Love, ecstasy, bliss, pleasure…all intense, but not a problem.
What we call anxiety is intensity of experience combined with conditioned reactivity. The conditioned reactivity colors the experience and makes it “bad”. But when we stop feeding into that conditioning and instead entrain to the spaciousness of being, we are actually undoing that conditioning, allowing a reset so that we can perceive the experience as it is rather than as we have been conditioned to perceive it based on the past.
So at first, this can seem like a doing. It can seem like a practice that you have to do because it can seem challenging. But the more you trust in this process and access unconditioned being, the more that conditioning falls away and you will find that you naturally experience less anxiety and even when you do, you can access unconditioned being and entrain to that.
This process is extremely effective. And, in my experience coaching people over the past six years, I see that few people actually apply it successfully in their lives on their own. It normally takes some coaching and accountability for people to truly apply it and get the results.
So if you are highly self-motivated, awesome. Apply this and I promise you, you will see the results.
But if you find that you’re struggling, needing support, clarification, and guidance, don’t feel that you are alone. Reach out and get support – if not from me, from a mentor who you can trust who truly knows how to directly meet all experience, someone who lives it and who can guide you. Keep reading my blog posts and books and watch my videos for support and guidance.
And if you want more intensive support and guidance, please know that I’m here in full support and available for that. The best, most effective system I know of that helps people get rapid results with this process is the Access Points program that I co-facilitate. It is an eight week program with daily support that helps people discover ever-present, unconditional peace in their lives. You can join us for a free introductory meeting here -> https://brianmarc.com/oneness
Whatever you do, don’t suffer. Suffering is a choice. I promise you, no matter how bad your anxiety or suffering seems, peace and freedom is available to you. Ten years ago I didn’t believe there was any hope for me. The amount of suffering I used to experience is actually difficult to believe. I remember what it was like, but now it is very much like remembering a dream. There is a way. It is just in the last place you ever thought to look. It’s not about fixing or getting rid of anything. It’s about a deep surrender to life which has you here.
We all have many imagined problems.
Or, at least, most of us do. Maybe you don’t. Maybe you’re mega-ultra-enlightened and you no longer have any sense of any problem whatsoever.
But the rest of us imagine plenty of problems.
And we try to solve those problems.
Ultimately, we’re unsuccessful in solving the problems.
Maybe we seem to solve one problem. Maybe two problems. Maybe three. Maybe a hundred problems solved.
But still, the problem isn’t solved. Because there’s still a problem.
I’ve asked this of enough people and gotten confirmation, so I’m fairly confident that this is a common experience among us.
The problems present as all kinds of things. Not enough love. Not enough money. Not enough respect. Not enough health. Not enough fairness. Too much burden. Too much responsibility. Too much fear. Too much greed. Other people’s behavior. Our own behavior. Politics. Career. Relationships. Spouses. Children. Parents. Siblings. Neighbors. The weather.
Whatever the problems seem to be, we can’t solve the problem underneath the problem. Because no matter how much money or love or respect or kindness or ease we get in life, it’s never enough. No matter how much we free ourselves of our obligations and responsibilities, we still feel dissatisfied. No matter how many things we acquire. No matter where we go. No matter what we accomplish. No matter what…it never fully solves the problem.
Or maybe we have a problem that we can’t seem to solve. Chronic health problems that don’t resolve no matter what we try. A feeling of being unlucky or cursed that we can’t shake. Maybe no matter what we do, we struggle with money. Maybe no matter what we do, we struggle with anxiety, fear, anger, frustration, unworthiness, lack, etc.
But all of that is looking in the wrong direction and we end up asking the wrong questions like “what’s wrong with me?” or “why me?” or “what do I have to do to get things right?”
Here’s why we can’t ever really solve the problem.
It’s because the problem is not a problem. It’s the gateway. It is the invitation to the fullness of life.
As long as we try to solve the problem, we overlook the simple fact that we’ve never fully, truly, actually been still and restful for the split second necessary to directly meet our own experience. Instead, we’re always squirming, trying to avoid it. We give attention to thoughts about it – all speculation, all based on past conditioning, all based on our ideas which we picked up along the way…
But we don’t actually stop and find out *directly* what this is.
Not another concept about it. Not a name of it. Not a story about it. Not what it was a second ago or what it will be tomorrow.
Now. This. As it is. You. Your intimate experience of yourself, of life, before, during, and after all thoughts, all resistance, all reactivity.
Here’s what I’m proposing to you. If you’ve reached a point where you’ve had enough of the struggle and seeking for solutions. If you’re done with the suffering of seeking for future betterment. If you’re exhausted to the bone and ready to set down the armor and the arrogance of everything you think you know. If you’re ready to finally admit that you haven’t managed to win…
Then open to this: stop looking for an answer. Stop looking for a cure, remedy, solution, or any form of salvation.
Whatever is here. Whatever experience. Whatever sensation. Whatever image. Whatever fear…
Just open to it. By setting down the armor. Setting down the seeking. Setting down the effort.
Be still for a moment. Be vulnerable. Naked. Raw. Open.
As you are.
All of you. Exposed.
And don’t move.
Let everything else move as it does. The wind in the trees. The thoughts and sensations moving in the body. The birds singing. The heart beating.
But you…you be still. Which you are. You cannot be otherwise. So this is not a restraint.
It’s just that for a moment, you can recognize the stillness that you already are, that is already present. That is already effortless.
Whatever happens, remain quiet for now. Don’t move to understand. Don’t grasp a thought. Don’t try to figure it out. Don’t get somewhere. Don’t get something. Don’t solve. Don’t do anything.
Just for a second.
Be still and see what is. You are. This is.
Does this require anything? Are there any conditions for life to be?
If there is intensity, let there be intensity. If there is boredom, let there be boredom. If there is anger, let there be anger. If there is fear, let there be fear. If there is numbness, let there be numbness. If there is nothing, let there be nothing.
Whatever is, let it be. And just see that it is. You are.
And there are no conditions for this. It is.
Now you have a choice. Either remain with this recognition of life as it is, open, free, now, unknown. Or give attention to the next thought.
You don’t need to stop thought. Or get rid of it. Or make the thoughts positive.
Just see that it is all happening. And that life is already without a problem.
Typically, the next thought is something like “But this couldn’t be the answer!”
And that’s right. This is not the answer. Because there is no answer. If we are seeking for an answer, we’re already starting from the assumption that there is a problem.
We don’t need an answer or solution or remedy or cure.
Life doesn’t have a problem. You and your life are not a problem.
But you can’t see that clearly as long as you’re looking for a solution. And that is why everything you do to solve the problem only reinforces the problem.
This is paradoxical. But it is true.
The real answer is not an answer. It is prior to the problem. Already here. Already available.
Always intimately accessible.
P.S. – Tomorrow I’m co-hosting an introduction to Access Points with my friend, Chanan. The Access Points program is wonderful and I truly want you to learn more about it. It is a simple, direct process with huge support that helps people to ease into this recognition of life as it is – open, free, and problem free – like nothing else I’ve ever seen. Join us tomorrow (Friday) for the meeting, and we’ll share with you the process and give you a taste of how you can begin to apply it in your life right away. Register here -> https://www.brianmarc.com/oneness
Do you ever feel stretched thin? Pushed to your limits? Do you ever feel as though you might lose your shit? Break down?
Good. Then we’re both human.
Maybe we can drop all the superhuman ideas for a moment and meet here. In our humanity. In our common experience.
For a lot of my life I sincerely believed that life should exalt me. I thought that life was all about me.
That was a lot of pressure. And painful.
Then I was afraid to be humble. To be human.
And all the spiritual pursuits were to become superhuman – to get rid of the “base human experience” – the intensity, the discomfort, the uncertainty, the fear.
Life has showed me a different way, however. It is not always easy. It is not always fun. It doesn’t always feel good. And it doesn’t often look the way I thought my life should look.
It’s messy. It’s challenging. It pushes me to my limits.
Then beyond my limits.
Revealing what has no limits. Revealing what was all along.
And paradoxically, in this, the human is allowed. This sometimes challenged, frustrated, discouraged human. With shortcomings.
So much of so-called spirituality appears to have as its aim the end of the human. The ultimate escape.
But if we tell the truth, isn’t that just another carrot dangling in front of us, promising us that really, truly, somewhere in the future, some day, we might finally escape the human?
My question: why bother?
That’s not real freedom. That’s really just suffering by another name.
Real freedom welcomes it all. Including the pain, the difficulty, the fear.
On this blog I’ve played with different ways of sharing the intimacy of what it is to be fully human and also fully awake to what it is that is always here, allowing the human, allowing the emotion, allowing the birds to sing, allowing the crocodiles to eat the zebras.
Sometimes I’ve erred too much on the side of not sharing enough personal stuff and leaving it all too theoretical sounding. Other times I’ve erred too much on the side of too much personal stuff without enough context to help shine a light on the greater picture that I’m attempting to shine a light on.
What I have always *wanted* to do successfully is to communicate that true freedom doesn’t have conditions. It doesn’t require that you behave a particular way. It doesn’t require that you speak a particular way. It doesn’t require a particular understanding.
And I attempt to communicate that through sharing of my life, my experience.
So let me try again.
My life is full (as is yours…it is completely full of life). And that includes the “good” as well as the “bad”.
The freedom that I communicate about is unconditional. It doesn’t depend on the “bad” going away.
I have three young children who we homeschool. That’s not easy. For me, it involves a great deal of humility. I am humbled many times every day when my children don’t behave in the way I think they “should”. Their “unwanted” behavior triggers all kinds of conditioning in me – anger, frustration, sadness.
I have long-standing health challenges. I’ve struggled with mysterious illness that waxes and wanes for a long, long time. And when symptoms are intense, that’s challenging.
I don’t always behave well. I am sometimes reactive.
I have fears based in old programming of lack – not enough time, not enough money, not enough love, not enough…
All of this is allowed.
Not because I am allowing it. I don’t have that power. I’m not superhuman. All I can do is give up my imagined superhuman powers and receive the gift of life as it is now.
It is in this that I recognize the ever-present power that allows it all always, unconditionally.
This ever-present power that allows it all always unconditionally is here now. It is nearer than my next breath. And there is no boundary that I can find between me and it.
There is only this in direct experience.
But that doesn’t get rid of thought, feeling, sensation, emotion, memory, or any of the feelings that the mindbody has come to conceive of as “me”.
This is true freedom.
Effortless freedom. Already already given.
And to discover this, all that is necessary, is to stop looking for something else.
The challenge is that we’re all so strongly conditioned to look for something else, we don’t even know how to stop! We don’t even know what stopping is.
Which is why there is a paradox with self inquiry.
The paradox is that with self inquiry the recognition that occurs is instantaneous and complete (there is only ever freedom), but the momentum of the habit of looking for something else – consulting the mind of solutions to all its invented problems – typically continues. So we may stop, look, and recognize for an instant right now that there is boundless aliveness here as our most intimate experience of ourselves. But then a second later, we may be concerning ourselves with all our imagined problems.
This seems like an obstacle at first. But through repeated inquiry, it may become clearer that all the habits of seeking, conditioned mind are equally allowed in the spaciousness of being.
So if you’re looking for a quick fix technique to change how you feel, to change your state…self inquiry isn’t it. But if you’re interested in seeing the false as false and thus recognizing the light of awareness that illuminates all unconditionally, self inquiry is powerful. It just takes persistent looking (and the support of those who can point clearly over and over for as long as it takes).
I was just writing an email response to someone who wrote me about their current struggles with grief and fear.
Among what I wrote, was the following few sentences, which I’d like to share with you:
Life is not trying to break you. Life is trying to break you OPEN so that you can see yourself as you are. Free to be and free to receive all as yourself.
If you struggle in life. If you struggle with anything. Big or small. If it feels like a struggle. And if that struggle feels like too much. If it feels like you’re trying to bear the unbearable…
Look. And recognize in your DIRECT EXPERIENCE that you are already letting go. You are already so completely letting go that there is only letting go. Letting go appearing as contraction. Appearing as fear. Appearing as greed. Appearing as hunger. Appearing as frustration.
This is already only freedom. Nothing other than freedom. Freedom so totally free that nothing could possibly be excluded.
This is a video in the series that I’m calling Ask Consciousness Anything Sincere.
If you have a question or topic that you’d like me to make a video on, please submit that here: http://joeylott.com/ask
I have begun a new video series that I’m calling Ask Consciousness Anything Sincere.
If you have a question or topic that you’d like me to make a video on, please submit that here: http://joeylott.com/ask
Why do you exist?
What if you don’t give me a belief as a response? Can you respond authentically? Can you respond from the knowing of the heart rather than the knowledge of the mind?
Here’s what I think: I think that too many of us have bought into an unhelpful, life-sucking story about why we exist. And we don’t tune into the real Why We Exist often enough.
That life-sucking story about why we exist could be the “we exist to suffer” story or the “we exist to do” story (i.e. the “we exist to produce/achieve” story). It could be the “there is no reason” story. It could be the “there is nothing” story.
It could be any number of stories. But what is that story? What is its nature? Is it fresh? Spontaneous? Alive? New?
Or is it a dead belief, found by sorting though boxes of beliefs that weigh us down.
If your life feels like it is heavy…maybe you’ve been lugging around too many of these boxes.
Lighten your load.
It’s Christmas today. Love it or not. Celebrate it or not.
Like most people (or so I imagine), I don’t care for the commercialization of Christmas. And I could gladly do without the Christmas music.
But symbolically, Christmas is a beautiful reminder. And I’d like to invite you to take a moment to reflect and inquire directly into your experience to discover what this can point to.
In the northern hemisphere, where I live, we are coming out of the darkest time of the year. We’ve just turned the corner, and is it any surprise that we’d celebrate the birth of the Sun at this time?
The light is with us always. The dark is with us always. And try as we might, we can’t find the difference other than to say that one is light and one is dark, though we know beyond doubt there appears to be a difference.
We live in a world of apparent multiplicity. This is truth. And yet it is not the whole truth.
When we imagine this world of duality and multiplicity is all there is, we suffer. We fear that the waning light and waxing darkness in our experience is a bad thing. We position the dark as bad and the light as good, and we imagine ourselves to be a victim to the whims of the universe who plays games with light and dark.
But if we inquire directly right now, we may discover that while darkness and light are always at play, the light (and the dark) is always here fully. And we are this. Our apparent darkness, confusion, and separation, is not separate from that ever-present light.
“Whoa! You seem *angry*!”
Translation: There’s something wrong with you. You scare me. Get away from me. And don’t come back until you fix yourself.
Of course, this isn’t limited just to anger. Sadness, depression, fear, anxiety, and more. All things that I have been taught are wrong, shameful, unacceptable.
I spent the first three-quarters of my life thus far giving my all to trying to fix myself. I desperately wanted to make myself acceptable. Lovable.
And it was horrible. Deeply isolating.
And a lie.
Here’s another of my favorite quotes: “God don’t make no junk.”
Consider for a moment the immense arrogance of the belief that life is happening – a mysterious miracle that no one can comprehend – stars are being born and dying – planets are spinning around in the universe at gazillions of miles per hour – existence exists…
…but I am unacceptable.
Sounds mightly arrogant (and wrong) to me.
When Moses went to commune with God and receive the Ten Commandments, he first told the Israelites that they should remember one important thing: don’t worship false idols.
When he came back the Israelites had made a golden calf idol that they were worshipping.
I’m reminded of this story because it’s a great story to describe what so many of us do. Everything is happening. Creation is being created. It is utterly immense. Inconceivably boundless.
And moreover, our actual, direct, moment-to-moment experience, our most intimate experience of being, is of this boundlessness, this awe-inspiring everything-nothing.
And yet…and yet…we keep worshipping golden calves.
What golden calf am I referring to?
I’m talking about the idea that I can be unacceptable. That my experience can be unacceptable. That I need to fix myself. That I can know how things should be and that they should be other than they are.
That I have the power to know what is right and wrong, good and bad. And that I have the responsibility to manage everything. Most importantly myself.
The arrogance to believe that I know better.
Fortunately, the remedy is ever present. Just stop. And in stopping it is clear that there never was any arrogance anyway. It was just stuff happening. Noise. Color. Movement.
One of my favorite quotes is one attributed to Oscar Wilde: “Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken.”
Of course, that’s a nice quote to throw around. I’m sure it performs well on social media. Probably garners lots of likes and shares. Because it *sounds* nice.
But the *reality* of simply being oneself isn’t so glamorous.
It’s often humiliating. And that’s on a good day.
There was a time in my life – when I was just a baby – when I was unabashedly myself. I didn’t doubt myself at every turn.
But by the time puberty hit, those days were gone. Junior high school was all about trying to be *someone else*.
Not me. Because me was unacceptable. Someone else – the ideal person – was all that was acceptable. And so my task was to hide myself and do everything within my power to project an image of myself as the ideal person.
This game of hide and seek (and pretend and project) can consume an entire lifetime.
But what’s the upside of this? Relative safety? Simply avoiding some excess bullying and shaming?
And the cost?
The cost is the recognition and acknowledgment of the truth.
What’s the truth?
The truth that this me that is so unacceptable and that needs to be protected can’t even be found.
And please, I’m not saying that we should all trot out the “right, right, yes, I know that…there is no separate self” line.
I’m saying, let’s all pause right now and actually take a look.
What needs to be protected? What is it that is actually unacceptable?
And is this game of hide and seek (and pretend and project) really all that fun?
I will suggest to you that if you actually pause and look right now – or ever – you will see directly that the imagined problem that needs to be solved and the imagined thing that needs to be protected…can’t be found.
Don’t take my word for it, though. Be bold. Look for yourself. Really. Right now.
Even if you have looked in the past. Just humor me and look right now. Be curious.
What needs to be defended? What is in danger? What can be harmed?
Seeing this doesn’t change any of what I thought needed to be changed. It does not get rid of the unwanted, uncomfortable feelings. It does not get rid of the sense that I have referred to as being a person. It does not confer a sense of (everlasting) invulnerability. It does not offer me any greater self-concept. It does not relieve me of frightening or unpleasant thoughts.
It does something else.
It reveals that I am, always have been, and always will be absolutely, perfectly myself. There is nothing whatsoever I can do to screw this up. Neither can I escape it.
And neither can anything escape this, which I have called myself.
Utter non-separation is not something that you or I get to realize or attain in the future. It is the ever-present reality.
We just told a different story about it.
We just called it being an unacceptable me. We just called it hiding and seeking. We just called it shame, blame, humiliation, etc. We just called it separation.
Just take a look. Right now.